I came home this morning from work and was all happy etc as expected. I got into bed and turned my laptop on... am I getting wireless internet from the guy down the road? Nope... no connection right now. No problem I thought. I'll just go to sleep and try again later.
Just then I received to this point probably the most shocking, saddening text message I've ever been sent. My friend texted me with the chilling words: "Dude, Chris Benoit has died".
I jumped out of bed and rushed to my mums computer and had to see if this was true. I sat there for about an hour reading all the posts here, and constantly refreshing WWE.com, hoping for updates.
Anyone that knows me personally, or as a poster, knows that Chris Benoit was my favourite wrestler of all time, ever. Period. I've worshiped the guy for so many years it's unbelieveable. He could literally come to the ring, fart in a paper bag and pop it in his opponents face and I would have called it a five-star technical masterpiece.
Right now I'm still in shock. I couldn't even bring myself to cry because I'm just so numb with shock right now. All day I've been depressed and have been repeating in my head "Chris Benoit is dead". It's just so unreal. Ever since Eddie died, I've always wondered how it would feel when Benoit dies... I just never expected to be discussing it now... so soon.
I'm not here to make assumptions or speculate what happened. Did Benoit kill his son? Did he kill his wife? Did his wife kill them both? Was it a gas leak? I don't know, and I'm not going to come to conclusions until the truth is out. Right now, I'm sad because one of my heroes is no longer with us.
And if he did kill his family? What then? My respect for him will go down, but I'll still idolise him for what he's given us for the past 20 years.
Proven guilty or not, Benoit always has been, and always will be my favourite wrestler.
To Chris Benoit. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for the tears. Thank you for the inspiration.
